clexapolaris:

My affection for Lexa increases every day, but that scene from the sneak peak hits another level of admiration. There was something at work in her soul that she was completely aware of and understood but had to ignore up until now. She wants to cry. So she cries. And it is so beautiful and sad, because there were so many moments before where she suffered and wanted to cry but couldn’t. We have so many scenes where it should have happened but it didn’t.

2x07. When she heard about Anya

2x09. When she told Clarke about Costia.

2x09. When she had to kill Gustus

2x15. When she had to betray Clarke

Her feelings fly quickly over her face but you see them in those short moments. She never cried because it would have made her look weak. That is what she thought, what she believed in - that it would make her look weak, and the Commander is not allowed to look, let alone be weak - head over heart. She had to repress her feelings all the time. She had to be ready to move on without even having the time to grieve. Swallow it down, look somewhere else, put yourself back into work. She is constantly sacrificing a part of her own happiness and has to ignore the pain that comes with it because that is what Commanders do.

And it is not just her family that she loses. Lexa has to worry about her own future as the Commander and her people as well. We also have scenes where Lexa wants to cry when it comes to them:

3x02 When Lexa looks upon Polis

3x05 When Lexa finds out what the Arkers have done to her people

Like, do I still need to go on? This is so fucking cruel.

But with Clarke it’s so different, because Clarke gives her the chance.

With Clarke she enters those unexplored regions in her heart and let’s those trembling sensations take over her. Clarke gives her the ‘something’, the future that she thought would be impossible to get in this life. And the way how Lexa treats Clarke for all the things Clarke gives her is so astonishing to me because when you look at Lexa you get this expression of wildness, someone you should never underestimate and be extremely careful with because she can and will end you the moment you do something that doesn’t sit well with her, but at the same time she is the person who performs this immense act of kindness, love, respect and softness towards Clarke that I have yet to see equalled by another character on the show. No one treats Clarke like Lexa does. No one.

And it’s so amazing because you can also see how Clarke puts a new spirit of life into Lexa’s frame and how Lexa falls in love with Clarke for that: Clarke gives her a new chance, a life that is about more than just surviving, a life where she will not die young like everyone else, a life where a ‘not yet’ - a ‘maybe some day’ - mean ‘I love you, too’ but we have to do our duties first. a life where they have to say goodbye for now but will have a future together. It’s a goddamn promise and Lexa takes it.

She let’s Clarke see what it does to her. She doesn’t try to press back her tears. She doesn’t try to hide the smile, she doesn’t look somewhere else but looks at Clarke and swallows and nods like she always does but this time is accepting her feelings in the process and she makes Clarke understand that she understands. She always understands. And this gesture is a yes to everything. She is melancholy and despair at once in this moment. She smiles because there is hope for them. And she cries because it hurts to let Clarke go - for now. Clarke is what she wants, who she is in love with, who showed her that love is not weakness but strength (which is funny in a sense because Lexa always claimed that love would be weakness but it has already such high value to her and is in the end what keeps her going). And if Clarke decides that it is better to take care of all the other things first, so that in the end they can be together without having to worry to be apart again, then so be it. Lexa will take it and wait. She will always wait for Clarke, because Clarke gives her a reason.

It’s challenging, and dangerous, and a long fight, but Lexa trusts Clarke so she fucking takes the promise with a smiling face and a heavy heart. Fuck.

@ anyone who talks to @aiharayuzuchi stay away from her when she is sleep deprived

clexapolaris:

Now that @hedaswarrior came up with the Griffin Theory, I highly believe that 1x08 was foreshadowing at its finest.

There is a lot going on in that episode, but there is one particular scene that changes everything. Remember the last time I talked about the scene where Clarke ingested the Jobi Nuts and started to hallucinate?

There are quite a few things happening:

The first thing that happens is that Clarke takes the Jobi Nuts and starts to hallucinate. She believes herself to be in her old room on the Ark (sees space when she looks out) and even sees her old drawings on the wall:

Interestingly this scene focuses on 3 specific drawings:

Okay, I don’t want to sound crazy but:

Here is the thing: This is not actually the Tower in Polis, but the Empire State Building. In this scene though, due to the light, it does actually look similar to the Polis Tower and I think that was intentionally done. Why I will explain later.

The second thing that happens is that Clarke sees her father:

The third thing that happens is that they hug and then:

Clarke does not only have a vivid imagination of her father, but, and this is the very astonishing part that really stood out to me, is that she realizes that he is not real; they are talking about reality vs non-reality, something that ALIE often does as well - “define REAL”. This scene is so integral for future events. We know that Clarke needs to take the Jobi Nuts in order to have these hallucinations. The thing though is that even under the influence of the drugs/Jobi Nuts Clarke is able to distinguish a real event from a non-real one.

After that Clarke sits down on her bed with her father and surprisingly the Tower is always in our line of sight:

This is where I’m going to make the connection between the Polis Tower and what happened here:

In 3x06 we find out that an escape pod of the 13th station (the station that ALIE didn’t know about and everyone else thought was lost) exists in the Polis Tower, it’s real name is Polaris. Another thing is that the 13th station is related to Rebecca, ALIE’s creatorm making her ALIE 2.0. Jaha is sure that the codes that ALIE is looking for are in Polaris > Polis (Polis Tower). Another thing is, in what form would these codes exist > black blood > Nightbloods.

My first idea was that Jake Griffin probably had some relation/connection to the 13th station and didn’t tell anyone about it. That’s why I thought that the scene in 1x08 was foreshadowing information about Clarke’s father and that he knew even more than he did back in season 1 before he got floated. There are also some Jake/ALIE parallels that you can find in the first season and the third season, especially in 1x03 and 3x01-3x02. So, yeah. My first thought was Jake.

Thanks to @hedaswarriors ‘s Griffin Theory I can see how that scene is actually foreshadowing these things:

• Clarke is truly special - as Lexa has stated in 3x03
  
• Clarke has a very strong mind, much like her father and the will for peace
  
• The Tower in 1x08 is indicating the Polis Tower and the ALIE 2.0 version also known as Rebecca
  
• Rebecca created special blood > black blood that Nightbloods have. Probably a sort of virus that can be inhereted. It’s a safeguard and probably prevents ALIE to have control over them. It’s also why they are taken to Polis and train in the Tower.
  
• Clarke can distinguish reality vs. non-reality even under the influence of a specific drug (or even a bluechip) > hence the Jobi Nuts are a parallel to the bluechip and are telling us that even if Clarke takes the chip ALIE will not have the ability to have full control over her mind (also explains why Clarke is in pain in the finale)
  
• Clarke is the true peace-maker this season
• ALIE marked Clarke as a danger. If you look at the opening sequence of season 3 you can see that there is an exclamation mark next to Eliza’s name (indicating Clarke) with the saying “New contact” and “Quarantene Alert” and in the background we can see the Polis Tower:
  

What I’m trying to say is that the hallucinations that Clarke had in 1x08 have more significance than we thought in my opinion. Not only that but another interesting thing is that just an episode after 1x08 we have episode 1x09 called “Unity Day” and there is one scene that mentions the 13th station:

This scene is not only indicating the later Arker/Grounder conflict that we have in season 3, but also that the 13th station truly might still exist somewhere. Finn believes in a consiparcy theory, he doesn’t know if it is true. And the fact that he talks to Clarke about it, someone who wants peace as well is just wow.

It’s a long way for Clarke to get there, to achieve peace, considering that she still needs to find her humanity again, but I have faith that she will make it.

Oh and just to leave a bit information here:

“the theme for the season is, what does it mean to be human? We play that out in both Clarke’s story and A.L.I.E.’s story, and there’s a nice parallel, in terms of whether Clarke will be able to rediscover her humanity in time to save the day.“

“I think it’s become easier for her to compartmentalize. It’s funny, she’s willing to do what she has to do, but I do think, at some point, the question for her will be, can she realize that there’s a point at which there’s too much fire, enough is enough, and it’s not worth doing this? Last season, she went way over that line, and she hasn’t found it yet. There’s somebody that they meet, way down the road, who helps recalibrate her compass, a little bit. But for now, she’s willing to do what she has to do.” - Jason Rothenberg Interview.

If Rebecca is still somewhere in the City of Light, it could be that Clarke will meet her by the end of this season.

lexapolaris:

Now it all makes sense. The reason why Lexa is always surrounded by candles.

We know that the Grounders highly believe in spirituality. Looking at the Polis Tower and who is ruling over that City, you can make a very cool connection to a Tarot card that I always thought was interesting.

The High Priestess Tarot Card:

The High Priestess that you can see on the card is a woman who scrolls of wisdom in her arms - Lexa and the three pillars of being a Commander - and holds the key to the mysteries - “Death is not the end”. This card is about spiritual direction and sacred destiny - Lexa has the sacred symbol tattooed on the back of her neck and is the Commander of the 12th clans and Blood, she’s the peacemaker and defender of mankind.

Then you have the name Polis - which comes from Polaris the 13th station that got lost during a conflict a long time ago.

The thing about Polaris is that it is the brightest star of the Ursa Minor constellation. It is the main star that stays almost motionless in the sky. It is currently less than one degree away from the north celestial pole, so its position in the sky is largely unaffected by the rotation of the Earth

In mythology there is a sacred and divine flame in Ursa Minor - hence the fire on top of the Polis Tower. Another thing is that the Ursa Minor is traditionally known for navigation in history and mythology.

So, the Polis Tower represents the Ursa Minor and Polaris is the star up in the sky - metaphorically meaning the 13th station.

The Ursa Major in this case would represent the Nightbloods that get taken to Polis to train in the Polis Tower, the machine we have seen in Titus room - one of those escape pods that Raven used as well to travel to earth, is one that will take you into the City of Light and I believe is connected to the Conclave.

And this is the part where I’m going to discuss Lexa’s tattoo a little bit:

If my theory about Polaris is right, then it would mean that Lexa’s tattoo represents the arrival of the 13th station on earth and the connection Lexa has to it in the sense that she can enter it another version of a City of Light.

Let’s look at it in parts:

Lexa’s tattoo starts with the infinity symbol but I’m going to skip that one because I will discuss it later in relation to the First Commander. So, the first part of her tattoo in this case would be this:

As you can see it is a circle that is empty. My theory is that it is empty because it represents the City of Light aka the 13th station that is hidden inside of the Polis Tower (you enter it via machines). I said above that Polaris is an almost motionless star - if you connect this information to the empty circle you get the idea that it represents the City of Light, it is there but it seems far away. A place that you shouldn’t be able to reach, but Lexa can. I also said that Polaris is the brightest star, but in The 100, not everyone can actually see it, only those who are special enough. So, Polaris in this sense is the City of Light/13th station that is invisible.

Then we have this part of the tattoo:

On the picture above that show Polaris/Ursa Minor/Maor, you can see the route from Polaris to the Ursa Minor is not a straight line. This reminded me of where Polis/Polis Tower are located:

The lines on Lexa’s back are representing the line/ratio/route in which the 13th station crashed the earth. Not only that, but it also symbolizes the technology that Titus now has in his room for example and the mental connection you have with the 13th station/City of Light. We know how ALIE is able to control the minds of the people who swallow the chip and enter the City of Light, so why shouldn’t Lexa be able to form a neural connection with the City of Light and the Commander that lives there. She has the own free will to do so, all she needs is the neural connection. And if you think about it, it actually makes sense. You need the technology and the neural connection to enter the CoL. That is how Nightbloods most certainly do it.

Then there is this part of the tattoo:

This is the part that represents the Ursa Major aka the Nightbloods that exist in the real reality, but also have a connection to the virtuality (the white empty circle). I think for that circle to be full black is a reference to their blood and a reference to the physical realm. You can see it, unlike the empty circle.

Nightbloods are able to enter the City of Light via the Conclave. We don’t know how the conduction of the Conclave works as of yet, but I highly believe that all the technology in Titus room is involved.

Another interesting thing about the two circles is that they are both kind of broken, indicating the connection that Nightbloods have with the phyical realm and the virtual one. They can exist in both.

Also, the tatto does not finish with the black circle. There is another part that is stilll covered. Let’s look at the infinity symbol next.

Lexa’s infinity symbol is considered “sacred”:

I still don’t know what to make of the dots, is it a sign to break the infinity symbol (it should stay like that), or to make it whole again? (add parts when its fulfilled)

In 3x06 we see that the pod that Titus has in his room has the infinity symbol as well: see here. And it is not broken.

This makes me believe that Rebecca, ALIE’s creator, is the one who created the other City of Light that allows Nightbloods to enter it and get choosen to be the next Commander, in order to save the world from a cruel fate.

On my old blog I had already theorized that Rebecca might be the First Commander and also the one who is the reason why certain people have black blood. My theory is that Rebecca was a nanoscientist who tried to find a way to escape from ALIE since she couldn’t fight her. She probably used DNA nanotechnology to change the nature of her blood, working with nanomachines or let’s say mini nanorobots in the form of enzymes (nuclear acid-based, makes sense considering what happened to planet earth 97 years ago) that work in your blood to change its structure and function - that way Rebecca is able to enter her own City of Light. Not everyone is born with it but you have your exceptions - Lexa, Aden, Ontari.

So, for the Grounders to call the infinity sign “sacred” makes sense. It has a different meaning than it has to ALIE. If you look at ALIE and how she got all her information you can coe to the conclusion that while saving all kinds of data about historical events, mythologies etc. she eventually came across the infinity sign and it’s meaning. Since she is a replica of Rebecca I can imagine that she found it significant for her philosophy as well. She uses the same symbol without even knowing that Rebecca uses it as well, (she didn’t even know a 13th station existed) and puts the same meaning on it but achieves her goal in a different way - a different philosophy than Rebecca. And if Rebecca actually still exists somewhere in her City of Light, I hope that Clarke will find her.

So, in sum. Lexa’s tattoo represents the arrival of the 13th station and the connection between reality and virtuality (Rebecca as the First Commander), and Rebecca, ALIE’s original creator, might still be alive in the other City of Light. I wonder, now that ALIE knows about the 13th station and Jaha told her about the name “Polaris”, if she is going to send someone in there in the next few episodes. In the opening sequence we see ALIE’s drones mark a specific part of the Polis Tower indicating that there is something that she might want to see and have because it is significant for her ultimate plan:

I certainly see the arrival of the Arkers in Polis very very soon. Things are going to get very ugly my friends.

Oh! And about Lexa’s dream/vision. Here is the thing:

I get why Lexa would think that her dreams are visions. She is highly spiritual and has a connection to the Commanders before her. Of course she will take this as a warning. Another interesting thing about this though is this:

Lexa is the one who united the 12 clans. The number twelve is a very present number in the show as you know. The interesting thing about it is that there is another Tarot card that goes along with the “Blood must have blood” mentality.

The Hanged Man Tarot Card:

First things first, the number of this card is “12″. Here are a few central meanings about what he is wearing and what position he is taking:

He is wearing red pants representing human passion and the physical body (heart and strength), a blue coat for knowledge, and yellow shoes representing his high ideals (wisdom). - Sound familiar? Yeah, three pillars of being a Commander. Around the Hanged Man’s head is a bright yellow halo showing spiritual attainment, with the grey background suggesting invisibility (a good reminder to not flaunt your spirituality) - In the case of Lexa we don’t have a halo but a tattoo - the infinity sign - which is invisible since it is on the back of her neck. She’s hiding it for a reason. This could also be why Murphy got taken to Polis. The infinity sign on the chip is something sacred to the Grounders in the sense of “it has to stay invisible, hidden”. When they see it on Murphy they are irritated and take him to Titus instantly, which makes sense since Titus is in association with the sign - he has it tattoed on his head. He asks Murphy about the chip:

The sacred symbol is found outside of Polis, indicating that it’s secret is not safe anymore. Titus asking Murphy about it shows that he knows as little about ALIE as ALIE knows about Polis and Lexa. They know there is a threat, but they don’t know who it is - “A war, at the hands of an assassin.”

Back to the Tarot Card though. Then we have his position which shows “suspension” between physical and mystical worlds - reality vs. virtuality.

Lexa dreams about the Commander before her and sees her deaths, she takes this as a sign that she betrays them and their ways - “Blood must have blood” - The Hanged Man Tarot Card represents sacrifice - to give, you must gain - very fitting with the belief of reincarnation and Jus Drein Just Daun.

Now that we have Clarke though, and the idea to change their ways to achieve peace by taking the more “difficult way to achieve the better goal”, I have the feeling that Lexa will truly stay alive, because she doesn’t have to sacrifice herself in that sense anymore. This could be another indicator that it is her reign as a Commander that will come to an end, and not her death.

I have 2 other things in my mind that I would like to discuss as well but I decided that I want to see the other two episodes first and then sum it all up.

That’s all from me for now.

lexarov:

I think the biggest misconception about Lexa’s character is that people think that the Commander (Lexa as the leader) and Lexa (as the individual) are the same person.

They are not the same. There is a huge difference between these two personas. Lexa is a composition of two selves and there are enough scenes that show and create the split between Lexa as the Commander who chooses with her head, and Lexa as Lexa who chooses with her heart.  

Thanks to Titus we have found out that Lexa has been the best Commander that has existed so far.

“You’re special, Heda. I’ve been the fleimkepa for four Commanders. No one has done what you have.”

The thing about Lexa as the Commander is that she carries an impressive dose of strength, power, control, and fierce loyalty, especially to her people. She can be cold, calculating and very pragmatic. She is beautiful, rich and extremely complex. As the Commander it is safe to say that Lexa is absolute. She is always one step ahead of everyone, so everthing she does IS calculated.

And it is very interesting to me because the thing about Lexa as the Commander is that we hear from her before she is even introduced into the show. Her role is already vital even without an appearance. People talk about her, and people fear her. She is an enigma that is always present even when she isn’t.

When people tell me that they think what Lexa did at Mount Weather was “cruel” I have to agree. It was. BUT, that is her job. As the Commander it is Lexa’s duty to keep her people save.

You have to realize that Lexa stays true to her position as the Commander. The “I lead with my head, not my heart” mantra is something that Lexa repeats throughout the show, making sure that people understand what she, as the Commander, is really about.

So yes, Lexa as the Commander is ruthless, she embodies a particular philosophy, which is very essential to the show and for Clarke’s growth as a character. As the Commander Lexa refuses vulnerability, rejects memory, always looking forward. AND YET…

Here is the paradoxical aspect about Lexa’s character when she is with Clarke or alone: she is vulnerable. Extremely vulnerable. The kind of vulnerable that tickles that spot in her mind and heart where she hides all of her fears, that claws at her body and jerks at her features until she can no longer control her emotions and they spill out like blood from a wound and change and cover her entire appearance. Delving into her mind is very hard, because 1.) we don’t experience the story from her perspective and 2.) we don’t get too many scenes, but still enough to realize what Lexa as an individual is about.

Scene number one where we see Lexa entirely alone, emotional:

*inhales*

*exhales*

*represses feelings*

Scene number two where we see Lexa entirely alone, emotional:

What’s really interesting about this scene is that Lexa is dressed in light armor, but her face is absent of any face paint. It’s like they tried to combine her two personas into one person. And the very sad thing is that it is very contradictory. Because, yes, the Commander is on top of the world, ruling over a city, powerful and fearless, but Lexa is also so very lonely. Yes, she achieved what no Commander before her could, but she has a lot to pay for it. She has loved and lost many important people in her life. Sometimes through the hands of others (Costia), and other times through her own hands (Gustus). I just want everyone to take a few minutes and think about how heavy these losses must be. And I want people to see that Lexa is not allowed to cry after any of them. She needs to maintain the persona of the Commander. She simply can’t afford to break apart. But that doesn’t mean that she fights her emotions 24/7. She has her moments too, and we got exactly two of them.

It is also worth noting that in this scene Lexa genuinely worries about the future. The way she looks upon the city, Polis, and then the way she shifts her head to the right and you can see the slight shimmer in her eyes… This is not just about Clarke, but about EVERYTHING. This woman cares more than anyone would ever dare to hope. And it is so sad.

Now onto Lexa’s connection with Clarke.

What is clear is that Lexa loves Clarke.

And she is starving for that connection.

Lexa is impressed by Clarke from the beginning. When Clarke walks into her tend all composed and Lexa says “You’re the one who killed 300 of my warriors alive” Clarke dares and challenges her by saying “You’re the one who sent them there to kill us”. And Lexa is… blown. She is ANGRY but she is also CURIOUS.

Here you can see her looking at Clarke and then

… she kind of slams the point of her knife onto her throne.

And asks Clarke if she has an answer for her.

The thing is that Lexa could have killed Clarke right then and there. Merciless as the Commander is. She is actually kind of angry. But she doesn’t, because she is also very interested. Clarke’s entrance has left an immediate mark on Lexa. Lexa’s first impression of Clarke literally is “you are fierce, and I want to know more about you.” ( e.g. trusts her, fights along her side, invites her to Polis etc.)

And after that they form a relationship that is not only build on respect and trust, but also on love.

The kiss scene proves that.

Everytime, and I mean EVERYTIME when someone comes to me and says “Lexa kissed Clarke because she wanted to manipulate her” I literally fall onto the floor and roll myself into my carpet to try to hide myself from these people who actually BELIEVE that Lexa could manipulate the master mind that is CLARKE FUCKING GRIFFIN (BUT THAT’S ANOTHER STORY).

That kiss was real.

That kiss was so so fucking real. From both Lexa’s perspective and Clarke’s. It took them both by surprise, but they didn’t back away from it. Rather, they explored that unfamiliar and rare feeling of intimacy for a few seconds. They both experienced it before and lost it and now they somehow found it again, in each other.

And it is wonderful, because it is yet again very contradictory. Lexa’s face is covered in war paint, she wears war clothing. She needs to because she is in the open, she cannot allow herself to be anything else other than the Commander. And yet, she ends up kissing Clarke, in the open (if you think about it) because anyone could have come in. She risked it and followed her feelings, heart.

And she is so gentle. Hopeless romantic.

They don’t just want to share their fears and conflicts but also the love they have for each other.

Which makes the events at Mount Weather even more dramatic.

Because what Lexa did to Clarke at Mount Weather was cruel, BUT it did not just break Clarke. It also broke Lexa. She literally sacrificed her own happiness for her people. Everything that happened between Clarke and Lexa before the event at Mount Weather was genuine.

You can tell by the way Lexa says “May we meet again” in 2x15 that she is actually giving Clarke up. Let me remind you that she actually whispers these four words and it looks like that she is saying these words more to herself than to Clarke because she knows that Clarke will never see her the same way again. She failed Clarke in that moment and she KNOWS it. And yet she can’t undo what she has done because this is how things have to BE. Head over heart.

There is self-hatred, too. While Lexa seems very composed when making decisions while being Heda, you can see her break under the pressure of the past/present when she is Lexa. When she says “It helps no one to dwell on the past.” in the newest episode of season three, it’s not just a change of subject to get to the actual point (talk about the Skaikru becoming the 13th Clan), but also that Lexa is affected by the events of Mount Weather, too. She is haunted as well. The fact that Lexa never wanted/planned to betray Clarke, but the betrayal came with the offer which was made not before, or after the war, but WITHIN it, DURING it, makes it even more devastating. She wasn’t ready for that herself, and yet she had to do it. What’s also really astounding is that Lexa actually offers herself as a punching ball or something - “It’s easier to hate me than to hate yourself.” - Clarke comes at her more than once. She spits on her, calls her names, attacks her with a knife. I mean, do I still need to say how important this sentence is? How deep it actually goes? She is not only trying to free Clarke from the self-hatred that she feels towards herself, she is also ready to take the weight off of Clarke’s shoulders and put it on her own. And she will TAKE IT. Like she always does.

What is also worth mentioning (and this is just speculation) is that I think that Lexa has added new parts to her arm tattoo to imprint her failure (Clarke) onto her body aka. her soul. Tattoos are very important in the Trikru culture just as scars are important in the Azgeda culture. They are not just for design, but they all hold deep meaning, stories that are not allowed to be forgotten. 

Another great and very sad scene was the knife scene.

I find it rather funny when people say “Clarke wants to kill Lexa but she can’t because she has killed enough already” - You wish that was the case but it is not, I assure you.

The only reason why Clarke doesn’t kill Lexa is because she never wanted to kill her in the first place. Just as Indra said in season two “Those who are about to die will say anything” you can also apply this to when people are angry. “I’ll kill you!” - Clarke said something she never really meant. Neither subconscisouly and nor consciously. She may have tried to convince herself that killing Lexa would be good. People try to constantly convince her that Lexa being dead would solve everything, but she NEVER believed in that, not even for a second. 

BUT, Clarke is hurting. And Lexa knows that.

After Lexa says “I’m sorry.” She adds, “I never meant to turn you into this.”

Please pay close attention how Lexa gulps in this scene and then says,

“I never meant to turn you into this” while furrowing her eyebrows.

This scene is so emotional for me.

The amount of strain between them is so heavy in this scene. You can feel their desperation and it is so intense and electric it HURTS to watch them. This is THE scene where Lexa actually realizes just WHAT exactly she has done to Clarke, how deep the wounds go, and how much it changed Clarke (for the worse). It is an uncomfortable situation for both of them because they both never wanted things to end up like this. This scene is so cruel, because it shows that Lexa finally accepts that she is the catalyst for Clarke’s fall.

And what can Lexa do? Yup, you guessed it.

We know Lexa would never kill Clarke, despite what people tell her.

So she does what she does best. Let Clarke go. In every sense of the word.

She is prepared, she makes her way to the door, ready to let Clarke leave, go back to her people, almost out and then “Wait -”

Lexa stops, not quite sure if she heard right.

“I have a better idea.”

I have honestly never seen her so sad. And I mean she has different faces when she is sad but she looks so defeated here. Because for a moment it was over. For a moment she actually thought “this is it, no matter what happens she will never forgive me and I have to let her go even if I love her”. It is so sad, because Lexa seems to constantly wear a mask. In a metaphorical sense, masks always indicate something that a character tries to hide, but in this scene it falls off of her face. She gives up being composed all the fucking time, let’s the sadness wash over her face and show Clarke just how much it hurts her to see Clarke hurting like THIS.

And again, she offers Clarke something and would pay for another loss in return. Ugh. If that isn’t love then I don’t know what is. And if you still suspect Lexa’s love for Clarke to be genuine let the next scene prove that she TRULY does.

Hello to the oh so famous bow scene.

There is NOTHING political about this scene. From the setting to the music and the  things Lexa says, there is literally NOTHING political about it.

Lexa surrenders to Clarke in this scene. Not like people surrender in war, but rather like someone who is willing to risk everything just to make sure that the person you love is okay and knows that no matter what happens, from now on they will make sure that they (Clarke) WILL have their (Lexa’s) back. And it’s also worth mentioning that this is not just an act to represent that Clarke and Lexa are equals, but that Lexa will take the consequence for loving Clarke, because there will be consequences for her. She knows this. “I hope you know what you’re doing”. Recovery is not easy, but Lexa has faith in Clarke to make progress with her, to re-build this relationship again and she will fight everything that will try to hurt Clarke again because she won’t anymore.

And this is the Lexa as the Lexa we know as an individual. She could never pull this gesture if she was acting as the Commander. But this is Lexa that is hidden between all the layers that you can find beneath that tattooed skin.

Lexa is complex, sometimes hard to understand, other times too simple to read. She isn’t perfect, flawed, extremely big and very tiny and so so so in love. And it is interesting because Lexa recognizes these different facets of her personality as distinct halves; the one who wields power, and the one who is weak. Which part of her personality is real? All of it. Everything about her is real. It’s a lesson she has learned long ago. She reserves the personal aspects of her character for the people she cares about, and the rest is presented to the world. And this is the difference. The Commander is the head, and Lexa is the heart and she is good and bad at both things. And if you still hate Lexa after all of this, then we literally don’t watch the same show.

That’s all, peace out.